I was dreaming in fits. the alarm kept going off. I don't remember it all but the overarching theme was that I had to prove myself.

in one scene though I was to go hottubbing with a bunch of people. some of theme were coworkers or otherwise professional acquaintances and I really really was uncomfortable taking my clothes off in front of them. I did not want them to see how out of shape I was. finally someone convinced me that I was in OK shape. I took off my clothes and headed for a hottub.

Matt G was in there and saw me. unlike other people who would not say anything, he calls things like he sees 'em and he said something like o wow, shari, I did not know you looked like that. hey look at shari, she looks good!

I did not feel good about that either becuase it made it obvious to me that people had thought or talked about the way I look and dress.