out of a jumble of dreams, one took shape and solidified.

I was working in a generic cubeland, with blazing white overhead fluorescents and faceless generic cubes. a new person had started, and be all accounts he was a womanizer. and I could tell that was true, when we were introduced, by the look in his eye, and the slightly-too-long time he held my hand when we shook.

throughout the day, the people who already knew him were watching me, in that sort of spiteful careless curiousity, to see if I was going to cry sexual harassment; and they had a valid point, I was either putting up with or fending off uwanted... touches. he'd stroke my head, or if we were looking over a document together, put a hand on my forearm; once, he tried to stroke my breast, but I deflected that. he even tried to kiss me.

I handled it all with a surprising aplomb, but it was all complicated by the fact that I was attracted to him. he had light brown hair, curly but cut short and even; some freckles, and light brown eyes with a clear direct look. it was all I could do not to return his attention, but I mostly managed, becuase it was impossible for me to tell if he was attracted to me or simply always acted this way around women.

there was a big meeting towards the end of the day, one with folding chairs for seats; and he tried to kiss me again. people were there watching... I started to return it, and stopped.

it was late, it started to get dark. outside the office was... like a mini playa. a big - maybe square mile? - field of dirt. and this field was full of attractions. maybe we were working for Disney? in the near left corner was a tall pole, held in place by lots of guy wires that were maybe three feet apart when they hit the ground. in the dark, they were hard to see.

in the medium distance there was some sort of Peter Pan light show. I saw a person come down vertically from the sky; it looked like they were on a wire. but I saw nothing a wire would be attached to.

this field, and its lights and attractions, was somewhat visible from the nearby highway. we were instructed to explore the attractions, and think of ways to improve them, in the sense of economic viability, becuae the company was losing money.

I went out with this new guy, and we sat in a tall office chair; my feet were dangling. he shifted, so he coud kick the ground and we would roll wherever we pleased. we started gong around the field counter clockwise. as we rolled, and looked at things, we held hands. I was about come to the conclusion that it really shouldn't matter why he was hitting on me, if he was, and I was attracted to him.

there was a wall around the field, but only in parts. we saw another pole with guys wires, which made it hard for our chair; but we worked out way around it.
we had gone about 4/7 of the way around - past the Peter Pan thing - when he saw some friends, and hopped off the chair to go talking to them. I was left with my feet dangling; but I couldn't shift to kick the chair becuase I had Alexander-cat on my lap. I waited for him to return, and the chair rolled a little further, towards the wall.

it occurred to me that I should not wait for him to return, and I could use the wall to propel myself along, and so I did. he didn't notice for a while, and then he did...

but then Trillian started barking and I woke up.

it's only typing this that I realized the issue was that someone isn't nearly as attractive once they decide to be dependant on you.