okay I really wanted to get this recorded but it's one of the most disturbing dreams I can remember. so I didn't want to put any of it to display on the index pages.

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the puppy was really a whole dog. like, the same size as now (25 lbs?) but this was full-grown and unspayed. and she was laying on the bed, my bed as it is now with the black and red and white crocheted stripy blanket on it. she flipped on her back and I started to massage her genitals like a hand job. there was nothing illicit in this action like I was hiding a dirty secret. the small "i know i'm dreaming" corner of my brain wondered about this.

then it was time to go. my housemate was flying to Boston. we were having an earnest conversation so I went with her on the plane. I didn't have a ticket though so I needed to get off the plane before it took off. the plane was amazing. in my dream I knew the name of the airline and it was a single monosyllabic word, but I can't remember it now. it was like the Green Tortoise of airlines. there were no middle rows of seats but more like a big area with pillows and cushions. it was all dingy coloured like the old un-renovated BART cars. my housemate was in the last seat, row 34, behind the stewardess station which was in the normal place for a 737. back there it was loud, cramped, uncomfortable, and too narrow to have the center play area.

the plane started rolling. o, shit. now I guess I was going to Boston too! I realized the plane had plenty of room though. I told my housemate (who in my dream was neither Karine nor my ex-housemate Kristin whom I ran ito on the BART last night on her way to Boston) that with so much room she should not stay cramped up in the back she should go relax on the cushions. then I went forward to discuss with them what do do about paying for a ticket after the fact. it was kinda neat I could walk up to the right side of the plan and look at the greenery as the plane took off. it was like we were flying low over a suburban neighbourhood with mature trees.

now some part of this was faded but I guess once that was dealt with, there was an ex (nobody real) on the plane and this third person we both knew whose name I think was Audrey Lang, or maybe Angley some-other-4-letter-lastname (who physically resembled nobody I know in this life). this Audrey person was one of those kinds who were trouble. everyone has a person like this in their life somewhere, the person is like thin, on the attractive side of the bellcurve, and seems sharply edged; sleeps around, with both genders although they are not nomrally bi, and is always going through drama... they are always miserable but everyone else around them looks less... alive. and now I guess it was my turn for this person to complicate my life and she proceeded to do so. I ended up deciding to hang out with Audrey. I think we ended up making out in the plane but I did not dream that explicitly. my housemate and my ex both had bad opinions on this.

we landed and I went with Audrey to hook up with some mutual friend. it turns out to be another ex-housemate, Ioana. I think somewhere in there I decided Boston was too unrealistic and mentally switch the location to somewhere south of there. anyhow Ioana lived on the western outskirts of town in a small house. she was surprised to see me but was kind of glad as there was this communications networking thing she could use my help with. we went into this back room in her house. it was painted a green color with dark hardwood floors. the windows were those real-old single hung windows with the ropes and weights in the frames. there was a bunk bed in one corner and a low table with lots of computers and a big printer.

the computers and stuff were connected to the internet and were part of a usenet-like floating relay. the way it worked was that the each node computer kept a few canned papers or tests with answers and each of these was tied to a code like this: $cfdc-frpg$. it's hard now to separate what I figured out in the dream from what I figured out since. anyhow part of the code tied into the paper requested and part was the destination. so these relays passed these big messages, with one big header like this:

$cfdc-frpg$ $cprg-drcp$ $cdkg-pcbg$ $cgpd-frgp$ $cfdg-fpcg$ $cdpg-fxgc$
$cqcc-pgfc$ $cfxg-frpg$ $cgfc-gfdc$ $cdfc-fxgp$ $cxfg-fqxg$ $cpcg-gxgc$

which was then followed by the papers or tests requested as the body of the message. note that I pretty much made this header up BUT: the first group always began with a c and the second group never did. the last letter in the first group was one whose sound always ended with an eee.

the reason this was done this way was to preserve anonymity of both the requestor and provider, but of course if you think about it for a split second you would realize that participating in this relay thing would be highly illegal. anyhow Ioana was really active on this and she was having some problem and wanted my help sorting it out. the big printer was used to print out the headers. so we tried to figure out the problem. all this was somehow tied to the airline too; the entire thing was part of some underground movement of student types (although obviously there were older people involved, if Ioana and Audrey and I, who are of an age, could be considered older). (well, I had, up til now, not been involved)

Audrey lounged on a futon while this went on. she was dressed sort of punky gothy, tight black cargo pants and combat boots, etc, etc

after a while we gave up on the problem, I guess. the dream sorta fast forwarded through it as I guess the problem and its solution (or lack thereof) was not the focus. what happened though was that Audrey and I got together, there at Ioana's place on the futon, which ended up opened out, and the weird part was that we ended up with Audrey in the same position as the puppy at the beginning of the dream, my doing the same thing. ooo creepy. oo oo. why do I dream this?